I was thinking...

Being intentional is quite difficult. One tends to put too much emphasis on making words so deliberate that the words never come. I glanced around and found writings from the past. Non-sensical writings that revealed. So I read them and realized I can re-write them, just like God has re-written me.

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written 2002 - revised 2010

and I was thinking

and that’s always unfinished business

when I stand

and I look

I forget who I am

until I see Christ looking back at me

and I was thinking

and I am always thinking

that my eyes were closed

when I read

the dance steps

of this passion played oh so sweetly

and I was thinking

when I wasn’t falling

how crazy silly

this faith meanders around me

when I talk to God

and He reminds me just how human I can be

and I was thinking

absurd as it sounds

that this little girl

is allowed to cry

because it isn’t so bad

and the ashes simply blow away

I try not to think about it

not to think anymore

that fits and tantrums

disfigure my face

when I whine

and You remind me of my sin

You hold my hand

and You tell me it’s ok

but I already knew

so I sang You a song

and played my deliberate painting

and left it unfinished

just like me

and I was thinking...

You already knew what I was thinking.